What was the true cause of death for Robin Williams?

Good morning folks!  We are here at WYYY, the station that digs deep into the news to figure out the answer as to why it happened.  Today, the subject of it is Robin Williams and why he died.  We decided to interview the well-known Master of Several Trades, Annette Fricke because she has done some amazing research on the subject.  Equipped with computers at work, home, and the internet she put the pieces together so we would all know just exactly how the story of Robin Williams all fits together.

First of all, Robin had a lonely childhood. He grew up in a wealthy household with a black maid, but “his rich parents had little time for him.”  He said that he “was supposed to be seen but not heard.” “His closest friend was his pet, a hunting dog called Duke. He was so desperate for a companion he spent hours trying to teach Duke to play hide-and-seek.”[1]

In the 1970’s, Robin began snorting cocaine and did not stop until after attending the party where his friend, Jim Belushi died in 1982.[2]  He claimed that Cocaine did not speed him up but slowed him down.  It also made him paranoid and impotent.[3]  Other diagnoses he had were Depression, Bipolar, Bipolar Mixed.[4],[5]  It appears that he was dually diagnosed, probably depressed as a child.  He did have years of sobriety and at least two stays at Hazelton, one in Minnesota and one in Oregon.  Robin also attended AA meetings.[6]  He claims that his humor is what helped him.  He was happy when he made people laugh.[7]

Medically, Robin had symptoms of Parkinson’s in 2011.  He had also developed Lewy Body Dementia which is similar to Parkinson’s and not usually diagnosed until after death. The two diseases are characterized by different early symptoms, but they reflect the same underlying biological changes in the brain, and, over time, patients with both diagnoses will develop very similar cognitive, physical, sleep, and behavioral symptoms, according to LBDA.[8],[9]

“The short-term physiological effects of cocaine include constricted blood vessels, dilated pupils, and increased temperature, heart rate, and blood pressure. Large amounts (several hundred milligrams or more) intensify the user's high but may also lead to bizarre, erratic, and violent behavior. These users may experience tremors, vertigo, muscle twitches, paranoia, or, with repeated doses, a toxic reaction closely resembling amphetamine poisoning. Some users of cocaine report feelings of restlessness, irritability, and anxiety. In rare instances, sudden death can occur on the first use of cocaine or sometime thereafter. Cocaine-related deaths are often a result of cardiac arrest or seizures followed by respiratory arrest.”[10]

“Long-term effects of cocaine use include addiction, irritability and mood disturbances, restlessness, paranoia, and auditory hallucinations.”[11]

Alcohol effects: cirrhosis of liver, crosses blood brain barrier, affects directly the neuron receptors and neurotransmitters, increases blood pressure which can lead to stroke or vascular dementia. “Volatile (rapid changes in blood pressure as what happens in binge-drinking) has also been linked to Parkinson’s Disease in those who consume alcohol as compared to those who are abstinent.”[12]

It can also lead to vitamin deficiency which can bring severe damage to the brain resulting in “memory loss, emotional disturbance, gait problems, and ataxia.”[13]

In addition, “long term alcohol abuse effects include damage to the brain, high blood pressure, heart muscle damage, and nerve damage, pancreatitis, bleeding in the esophagus, erectile dysfunction in men, fetal alcohol syndrome in the offspring of alcoholic women, insomnia, depression and increased cancer risks.”[14]

The combination of both cocaine and alcohol: “Research has revealed a potentially dangerous interaction between cocaine and alcohol. Taken in combination, the two drugs are converted by the body to cocaethylene, which has a longer duration of action in the brain and is more toxic than either drug alone. While more research needs to be done, it is noteworthy that the mixture of cocaine and alcohol is the most common two-drug combination that results in drug-related death.”[15]

There you have it.  Cause of death: asphyxiation by hanging/suicide.[16]  It is likely that the alcohol caused the Parkinson’s, but cocaine could also be the culprit. Adults who abuse cocaine might increase their risk of developing Parkinson's disease.[17]

Join me once again next week when we explore the death of John Belushi.

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[1] http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2723387/A-genius-manic-said-cocaine-helped-calm-CHRISTOPHER-STEVENS-Robin-Williams.html

[2] https://www.cbsnews.com/news/robin-williams-dealt-with-years-of-substance-abuse-with-humor/

[3] http://people.com/celebrity/robin-williams-enters-rehab-for-alcohol/

[4] https://www.commdiginews.com/health-science/health/how-do-i-know-if-i-have-bipolar-disorder-23789/

[5] https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/robin-williams-depression-alone-rarely-causes-suicide/

[6] http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/gossip/la-et-mg-robin-williams-dead-death-rehab-alcohol-cocaine-20140811-story.html, https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/robin-williams-death-his-cocaine-724802

[7] Ibid., https://www.cbsnews.com/news/robin-williams-dealt-with-years-of-substance-abuse-with-humor/

[8] http://www.foxnews.com/health/2014/11/12/robin-williams-diagnosis-what-is-lewy-body-dementia.html

[9] http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2014/11/11/robin-williams-had-parkinsons-tremor-likely-suffered-from-hallucinations.html

[10] https://www.psychologytoday.com/conditions/cocaine

[11] Ibid, https://www.psychologytoday.com/conditions/cocaine

[12] http://www.healthguidance.org/entry/2845/1/Alcohol-Abuse-Effects---5-Physical-Effects-Of-Alcohol-Abuse.html

[13] http://brainblogger.com/2008/09/12/physiological-effects-of-alcohol-consumption

[14] Ibid.,http://www.healthguidance.org/entry/2845/1/Alcohol-Abuse-Effects---5-Physical-Effects-Of-Alcohol-Abuse.html

[15] Ibid., https://www.psychologytoday.com/conditions/cocaine 

[16] http://www.autopsyfiles.org/reports/Celebs/williams,%20robin_report.pdf

[17] https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2005/12/051214084800.htm

I know that My Redeemer Lives

02242018 Memorial Service for Della Louise Conwell, Moses Lake UMC, by Annette Fricke

            May the words of my mouth and the meditation of our hearts be acceptable in your sight, O God, our rock and our redeemer.  In the book of Job, we read in the nineteenth chapter, “O that my words were written down!  O that they were inscribed in a book!  O that they were engraved on a rock forever!” The still unknown writer of this book is certain that there is wisdom to be shared here.  It is a book that has withstood the test of time, that still has meaning and wisdom today.  All over the world, it remains a source of inspiration for many who find themselves amongst the naysayers, those who think ill of others in various situations.  Friends, even those who are well-meaning, can sometimes rub us the wrong way.  What I have read is the climax of Job’s story, but there’s more.  Allow me to recount the essence of the rest of the book.  The story of Job is that of a non-Jewish man in the Old Testament, before Jesus.  Job, despite not being a part of the Jewish faith, believes in God.  His character has much to teach us, much to teach about loss and ways to deal with it.  Most of what his friends have to say to him are less than appreciated by Job.  His first friend, Eliphaz concludes after consoling Job and reminding him of how well he consoled others insists that Job must have sinned and that is why he is suffering.  Most people today would probably not say something like that to someone’s face although some form of that is sometimes something kept to themselves or talked about behind a person’s back.  Job’s response is to defend himself.  Anyone with integrity would do likewise—at least from Job’s perspective.  The next friend, Bildad demands that Job repent of his sin.  Job sinks more and more into a depressive state and is angry beyond measure.  Job seeks God’s defense.  If that is all he has for friends, only God can defend him.  Zophar, Job’s third friend comes up with a logical conclusion.  If Job is guilty and therefore must repent of his sin, he deserves punishment.  End of story.  There is nothing more to be said.  It is a simple formula that has been handed down through the ages.  Why, Job, doesn’t this work for you?  Why do you question it and why can’t you go along with the wisdom of the generations that came before us?  Job again plays the integrity card saying, “I am a laughingstock to my friends; I, who called upon God and he answered me, a just and blameless man, I am a laughingstock.”  Job has an enormous understanding of God, yet feels the sting of the words his friends have spoken to him.

            Even though Job is probably a fictitious figure in an outdated understanding of sickness and loss, there’s much about Job we can learn.  If you are family or a good friend of Della, you will feel the sting of grief to the degree that you loved her in this life.  Hold onto that.  It will not help to remember any of the negative thoughts you may have had in past interactions or relationships with her.  Let go of those thoughts and leave those where they belong, in the past.  You, who are the children, cherish those happy memories of childhood interactions that maybe only you remember.  Bill, savor the memories of the early days of courtship.  In the days ahead, you, like Job will choose your own way.  Consider carefully how you will deal with this loss.  Will I lash out at others?  That’s a possibility.  Will I be kind to others and accepting of their expressions of condolence?”  I hope you can do that.  To others, do what you can to be supportive, even if it is as little as holding hands and saying nothing.  Your presence is important and a simple, “My condolences,” may also be sufficient.  From this day forward, without Della in your life, go on with your lives, giving thanks for the positive moments that you shared, remembering the good.  Also, among yourselves, do not judge others in their grieving process, because this process is different for everyone.  This loss may affect many.

            But more to the point, “If mortals die, will they live again?”  Job’s answer is a resounding, “Yes.”  Job’s faith is strongly convinced that God, the creator and sustainer of the universe will surely come to his rescue.  Job is sure that there will come a time when his sins, though many, in the end will not count and God will cover his iniquity.  Even though the days and days may go by when in our losses we seem to experience the absence of God, especially when someone we know and love has died, whether or not we are seeking God, God eventually will come to us face to face and most profoundly when we die.  How is it that God could create all that exists and then simply abandon us?  God will never abandon us despite our perceptions of God’s absence.  Job’s author writes strong words of confidence, “I know that my Redeemer lives, and that at the last he will stand upon the earth; and after my skin has been thus destroyed, then in my flesh, I shall see God.”  Pay attention to the important point of that sentence because therein lies the hope and promise to all of God’s children of which you are one.  “I know that my Redeemer lives.”  That will mean more to you the more you allow yourself to believe that it is true.  The more you believe it, the more comfort it will bring you from his day forward in your daily life.  Eternal life is not based on morality, because we have all said and done things of which we ought to be ashamed.  No matter what, God is God of the living.  That is a message that is repeated over and over in the New Testament.  Your confidence, your comfort, and your peace to whatever degree your belief is, is this, “I know that my Redeemer lives.”  There is a place for us beyond this life, for you and for Della.  Your Redeemer lives and so will you.

Journey through the Wilderness

1LentB, February 18, 2018 for St. Martin’s Episcopal Church, Moses Lake, WA by Annette Fricke

40 days is a long time.  It is not 4 weeks or 28 days.  Nor is it a month.  It is more than a month.  Lent is actually 40 days excluding Sundays. It is no accident that the first Sunday in Lent begins with the story of Jesus spending 40 days in the wilderness. Biblically speaking, 40 days does not mean 40 days either.  It means a long time.

Life can feel like 40 days in the wilderness when the journey ahead seems insurmountable.  I have two friends that come to mind when I think of a long time in the wilderness.  One is the sister of a classmate who continues to battle cancer who now is getting surgery for her kidneys.  The other is someone I have never met in person who has decided to change occupational leanings towards Psychology rather than Theology.  I also remember in my prayers the list of people we intentionally pray for each Sunday. We are all wilderness survivors. As I came back from Ritzville to exchange the county vehicle for my own this past Friday, the wind was as strong and cold as it was yesterday.  The tumbleweeds were actively being tossed by the wind every which way onto and out of the fields.  The wind had a way of making them come alive. As I raced from the bottom towards the top of a hill, I saw what looked like the biggest tumbleweed I had ever seen right smack in the middle of the road as though guarding the top of the hill and making it impassable.  It was certainly too big to catch below the undercarriage. My imagination took me far beyond those old western movies, old abandoned towns filled with dust, tumbleweeds, and broken dreams. I think about the hardships that the first settlers faced coming to the land here, then they were real dust bowls, not the fields and irrigation as we see now producing food for many. And I bet the rattlesnakes, coyotes, and wolves were more plentiful.

Before Jesus entered the wilderness with the wild beasts all about, he was baptized and the Spirit descended onto him, like a dove.  It is reminiscent of the story of Noah and the dove, the dove who brings a message of waters receding so that the ark can be put out of commission and never have to be used again to keep him and his family safe.  With Noah and his family, God is somehow looking for a new way to save people, people who are committed to keeping God’s ways.  It won’t be saving us from flooding, or for that matter from fire, or mudslides-- or wind throwing the dust and tumbleweeds around.  God will save us from our self-destructive selves, the selves that think unloving thoughts, the selves that act like wild beasts rather than people enlightened by God’s saving grace.  Some of those beasts meddle in other countries’ governmental business.  Other beasts become so frustrated with their own lives that they take the lives of others. Still, God will strengthen us when we are weak and unable to go it alone.  God knows us, that we struggle every day to live grace-filled lives and to be a blessing to other people, people who struggle as we do. God can help us find solutions to our broken world and broken individual lives.

Notice though, how Mark almost makes it seem that Jesus does not struggle.  He is in the wilderness being temped as we are and yet the focus is that he is with wild beasts and yet the angels wait on him.  It is a picture of harmony, of restoration, similar to when the flood is over and a voice comes from heaven saying, “You are my Son, the Beloved; with you, I am well pleased.”  The Spirit is there and it is the Spirit who sends Jesus out into life on earth with confidence that God will accomplish God’s mission of salvation through him.

As we go through the discipline of Lent, however we choose to do that, we can choose to take a break from the “I wants” and the “I needs” and consider how God has blessed us in this life, how God goes with us and sends angels to help us along our way. God can help us to prioritize our lives and resist the temptation to allow distractions to cloud the way of Jesus.  God can help us step out of our selves to help our neighbors just as Jesus did.  We will continue to have our trials and our troubles, but God can help us through them and strengthen our faith.  God can renew us as we remember the waters of baptism and allow God’s Spirit to take ahold of us, that Spirit who promises us life in God, a life where our renewal comes by daily repentance and forgiveness; where our renewal comes when we gather for Eucharist or the coffee hour where we conversate about our week, without fear of judgement.

God does not leave us in the wilderness to fend for ourselves although at times it may feel that way. God helps us to fend off the wild beasts and the tumbleweeds of this life because compared to the life that God gives each of us for the common good, they are nothing at all.  They are nothing because God is here right now, making things right and restoring us to wholeness.  Jesus has accomplished this on the cross, for us, for everybody.  “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God has come near; repent, and believe in the good news.” God accepts us as we are. God tells us, “You are my sons and my daughters, I am well pleased with you.” This is our proper focus in life. This is good news.  Go and share it with the whole world.

Dare to become a Good Apple

4EpiphanyB, January 28, 2018, St. Martin’s Episcopal Church, by Annette Fricke

            True or False.  “Does one bad apple” spoil “the whole bunch?”  Who thinks it’s true?  Who thinks it’s false?  It is, in fact, true. “As they ripen,” apples “produce a gaseous hormone called ethylene, which is a ripening agent. When apples are stored together, “the ethylene each apple emits prods the others around it to ripen further” and to the point of spoiling. “(Fun tip: Want to quickly ripen an avocado? Stick it in a paper bag with an apple overnight.)” But, you might ask, does that “apply to people” as well?[1]  Again, the answer is “true” at least according to the Pharisees.  Certainly, you have heard of bad company wearing off onto those who keep it?  You might have had parents who did not want you to mingle with bad company and therefore restricted you from certain so-called “friends” of yours outside of school hours.

            Jesus comes to us at the beginning of Mark’s gospel as one who teaches with authority, not as the scribes.  He brings a new teaching with authority.  In the same paragraph, he also casts out an unclean spirit. Jesus has authority in both word and deed.  Notice how the teaching is elevated above the healing.  Notice also the comparison to the scribes.  What set them apart?  Unlike most of the people, 90 percent “of the population ,they could “read and write.”  Therefore, “their interpretation of the law was considered absolute.”[2]  Jesus challenged their authority like nobody else before him.  Jesus is clearly identified as the Holy One of God, arriving at the synagogue which is a holy place on the Sabbath, a holy day and encounters something that should not be there according to the law, an unclean spirit in a human being. During this time period, Jesus is also out of place because he did not even have permission granted by the leader of the synagogue to teach.  He was out of bounds both by teaching and casting out an unclean spirit. Jesus was also out of place.  Jesus did not wait for an invitation, but asserted himself, inappropriately.  According to the Jewish law, it was not proper to touch an unclean person, because by touching that person, you become unclean yourself.  That is why the priest and the Levite in the Good Samaritan story pass by rather than stopping to help the beaten and robbed man. That is how far the teaching authority had gone astray among the Jews of Jesus’ day.

            What does this text mean for us today?  It says that Jesus was not afraid of offending anyone, he just went ahead and did the right thing.  He was willing to step out of the crowd mentality.  Very few did that in Nazi Germany, because their form of Christianity taught them to respect governmental authority. Many who did were killed. Some people today are questioning the women’s marches and asking why they are doing that.  With the recent news about Larry Nassar, the Olympic Gymnastics doctor, it is definitely one of the issues or reasons the women are still marching across our country.  The president of MSU is resigning.   A man in a position of authority has mis-used his position to abuse others. There are several victims. Abuse is not going to stop on its own. There are things we can do. We can be whistle-blowers. We can demand justice be done. We can go with our child or grandchild to their doctor and dentist appointments and talk to them about inappropriate behavior. We can make a report to Child Protective Services. In my own occupation, it is becoming more and more important that we always ask the question about whether or not our clients have suffered trauma. Not all people who have experienced trauma will have PTSD, but treatment can be given if appropriate. It cannot continue to be ignored.  Jesus says that we are to reach out to the outcast of society.  Our congregation should be reassessing at least yearly how to help those who are unable to help themselves.  We will probably make a few mistakes along the way and we need to be careful to check our interpretation of scripture with others and with other writers who have researched the historical context.  There are many who have studied the Bible in the past and have helped to elucidate the scriptures.  We should remain humble in our interpretations, knowing that in the future, someone may see these scripture passages a bit differently from what we do now.  We are limited in our understanding; we are not Jesus.

            Remember the saying that one bad apple will spoil the whole bunch?  It depends on how long you let it go.  Before doing the job of spoiling, it will help mature the other apples.  One apple can also be a help to the others.  To paraphrase Donny Osmond, “One bad apple [doesn’t] spoil the whole bunch.”

            It’s a choice each and every day; we can either guide each other towards life and maturity, to work together to do God’s work here on earth or be the rotten apple that stirs the pot leading to decay.

            It’s a choice and with God’s help, we can make the right decisions.

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[1] http://mentalfloss.com/article/31666/does-one-bad-apple-really-spoil-whole-bunch

[2] 2017, Living Liturgy, Year B 2018, Order of St Benedict, Liturgical Press, Collegeville, MN

Always and Without Ceasing, all Circumstances

GaudeteSunday/Advent3B, St. Martin’s Episcopal Church, Moses Lake, WA by A, December 16, 2017 by Annette Fricke

This has become one of my favorite Sundays to preach.  It is the Sunday that is known as Gaudete Sunday with the optional change to Rose for it’s colors of paraments and vestments.  Paraments, of course that with which we adorn the altar and other worship furniture and vestments being what priests and deacons wear.  The candle on the Advent Wreath to be lit specifically for this Sunday is the rose-colored one. Gaudete is Latin and means rejoice and is thought to be taken from the second lesson appointed for today.  It has that ever-beckoning call to its wording, “Rejoice always!” which sits alongside the hymn we have been singing with every Sunday’s refrain, “Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel shall come to thee, O Israel!”  The latter is a word of comfort to happen in the future while the context implied in the former is that of a lifestyle.  We ought always to rejoice.

It is thought that the verses of O come, O come, Emmanuel are composed from what is known as the O antiphons from at least the 8^th century and were sung at Vespers or otherwise known as Evening Prayer in the Anglican tradition before and following the Magnificat from December 17 through December 23, thus the dates written in for the corresponding verses in our hymnal, Hymn 56.[1]  This Sunday is to be a break from the usual penitential practice of Advent, yet the second lesson which begins with “Rejoice always!” is a short one.  Notice that both the hymn’s refrain and the first verse of the second lesson command us to rejoice!

The next phrase is also a command, “…pray without ceasing…”  About now we might be asking if this is necessary or even possible?  How can I rejoice always and pray without ceasing?  As a therapist, it is a typical approach of mine to sit with individuals seeking counseling and have them write about things in the past week that did not go right for them, then ask them what it would look like if what they did resulted in a good outcome.  That is where most of them are stumped because they have had failure in thinking and behavior for so long that they don’t know how it could look if all went well.

And one last command, “…give thanks in all circumstances…”  Wow!  What does Paul mean by that?  The only hint we get is that doing these things are the will of God.  Sometimes I give lists of healthy ways of interacting with others and ask individuals to practice.  We all have a sense that even with practice, we never quite seem to reach superior morality and finesse in our relationship to others. So, what does this mean?  It could mean these are things we should incorporate when we gather for worship, but then again, we are confronted with the words “always…without ceasing, [and] in all circumstances” so I think Paul means at all times.  It is not quite like taking a course of anti-biotics where it really is possible to take them all as prescribed by the doctor. It is not like doing these behaviors for a short time period.  Paul is saying this is a continued action.

People often talk about having bad habits like not eating a balanced diet or waiting till the last moment to write a paper for school or consulting the Cliff Notes instead of reading the whole book or expecting the movie to be the same as the book for a book report.  These are bad habits that can have negative consequences.  We are not asked to pray only when we are going through difficult circumstances or only if someone asks us to pray for them.  Rejoicing with those who rejoice is a difficult thing to do if we are secretly envious of that person, but this goes even a step further and commands us to rejoice ALWAYS. Giving thanks for losing our best friends and for sickness? 

There are both good habits and bad habits.  There are both good attitudes and bad attitudes.  When we are feeling insecure or depressed or perhaps being treated unfairly, it is a good idea to check with someone about these feelings to see if it is reality or our own imagination.  Negative thinking and feeling can have negative consequences.  Without discipline, we develop poor habits and repeat them over and over. As we think about the coming new year and what we might want for a resolution, it would be a step in the right direction to discover just how it is that we can meditate on and commit ourselves to Jesus Christ.  “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God in Christ for you.”  We have within us that first step and that first step is the most important one.  We also have other Christians around us to encourage us on our journeys with Jesus.  Most of all, we have the gift of the Holy Spirit if we but learn to listen.  God is faithful and God will carry us.

We are not God’s prophet like Jesus’ cousin John, but we can certainly learn from his tenaciousness and veracity. As God is faithful, so we also ought to be faithful.  We are not required to eat honey and locusts and wear scratchy clothes. Just as John pointed to Jesus as a witness to the greatness of Jesus, so we also, with our lives can live towards faithfulness.  We need not be distracted by all the parties, gifts, trees and wreaths. With God’s help, we can live out what Paul is saying to us. We can continue to sing “Rejoice!  Rejoice!  Emmanuel shall come to thee O Israel.  Emmanuel shall come to you O people of St. Martin’s.  Emmanuel shall come to you, O Moses Lake and Washington State and beyond.  God is not limited and neither are we. “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”

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[1] http://liturgy.co.nz/church-year/o-antiphons-chants

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Christians are not called to be a Mamamouchi

Christ the King Sunday, November 26, 2017, St Martin’s Episcopal Church by Annette Fricke

            Let’s have a little fun.  A friend of mine from high school English class sent me a ‘lost’ English word. The word is ‘Mamamouchi’ and it is a delight to say out loud, and has an equally delectable meaning: ‘someone who believes themselves more important than they really are’.[1] We have all met such people in our lives as well as those who have really contributed to our well-being without bragging about it to the whole world. Christians are not called to be a mamamouchi, but rather to be among the weak and humble.

What does it mean to enter the Kingdom of God? How is it that relating to the weak and humble are linked to entering the Kingdom of God?  One answer might be that one who has been a member of the church here on earth has died and gone to heaven.  That was something I was taught as a child and that somehow there is a direction we go when we die and it is up.  The problem with that thinking is that it talks about what happens later, not now.  The other problem is that what really happens in the afterlife may have no resemblance to daily living.  I think it is a misinterpretation of the gospel to think that this life-long hope in the resurrection is somehow not realized until we die and yet we continue to baptize and confirm and take Eucharist weekly, all of which come with the promise of entering the kingdom.

Just this past week, early on the morning of Thanksgiving, after plans were made to spend it with my girlfriend from first grade, her sister and their mom, I received the sad news that my second mom had died at 3 am.  Mostly, I thought about her generosity to me.  I travelled with her family to Spokane.  I played at her house. She was my Camp Fire Girls’ leader. She helped me learn how to sew clothes. It seems that when we are giving to others, we are most alive as persons, dispensers of God’s love as we live out our callings, our God-given vocations.  It is not so much what happens to people when they die as it is what happens when we are alive.  It is common to not realize God’s work in our lives through others till we reflect on it days to years afterwards. Yet we also must take care of ourselves as much as we are able, knowing that special people in our lives will not always be there. Self-care is a good thing as long as we are aware that being selfish and doing things only for our own gain is not.  A lost English word that comes to mind is ‘Mamamouchi’, ‘someone who believes themselves more important than they really are’.[2]

This parable seems to point out that all of our relationships are important, among believers as well as with people outside of the church. Indeed, this parable seems to imply that the outsiders will be judged by how well they treated believers!  We are weak in their sight.  We are not the powerful.  Throughout the ages, Christians have been persecuted for their beliefs, ridiculed or ignored. In times past, strong Christian leaders who defied the Roman Catholic Church were burned at the stake for their beliefs and declared to be heretics. At other times, it seems like we all must have something contagious, so others stay away. Helping out the weak means helping those in our midst as well as those who are not yet believers or simply do not feel comfortable coming through our doors. Jesus does not appear as a powerful presence in the world.  Instead, we get from others, “Where is your God?  God must be absent or out on a long journey.”  Some still want to believe that God will show up with a grand entrance back into our history, our humanity.  Instead, every prediction of Jesus’ return does not happen.  We also sometimes hold on to that idea that God will somehow definitively prove non-believers wrong.  We forget that God does not work that way.  God is not like that.  God is also the weak one.  God is the sick one in a hospital bed, the one incarcerated for life, the one on death row, and the poor, hungry and thirsty that are struggling to keep themselves and their families alive. God is the weak as well as the humble giver, loving us far more than we can either imagine or deserve.

In the days after Thanksgiving, when we are to remember all that God has given, I offer this poem:

The Gift by Mary Oliver

Be still, my soul, and steadfast.

Earth and heaven both are still watching

though time is draining from the clock

and your walk, that was confident and quick,

has become slow.

So, be slow if you must, but let

the heart still play its true part.

Love still as once you loved, deeply

and without patience. Let God and the world

know you are grateful. That the gift has been given.[3]

Let us go forward into Advent, thankful for what we have and for what we have in abundance and may we always remember to share with others our

God-given gifts.  There is nothing we can do to earn our way to salvation because it has been freely given and is already here. Jesus died on the cross to make that possible. We didn’t earn salvation, we inherited it.  We are not called to be a mamamouchi because it is not us who are great, it is God.

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[1] http://www.bbc.com/culture/story/20171122-twenty-six-words-we-dont-want-to-lose

[2]http://www.bbc.com/culture/story/20171122-twenty-six-words-we-dont-want-to-lose

[3] https://wildandpreciouslife0.wordpress.com/2016/09/27/the-gift-by-mary-oliver/

A word of Peace in a Place of Turmoil

Proper22A, St. Martin’s Episcopal Church, Moses Lake, WA by Annette Fricke

In the news, we heard about a shooting in Moses Lake, Columbine, Virginia Tech, Orlando, a small Eastern Washington high school, and a stabbing at Federal Way High school.  Unlike the other shootings, the shooting in Las Vegas was such a large-scale event that the US flag was to be at half-staff, to formally indicate a nation in mourning. On this day, the imagery of the Gospel text is no different.  Jesus tells a parable handed down to us in such violent language that one author deems it “murderous hostility.”  Turns out that this type of scenario is the type of thing that really did happen in Palestine in the first century.  Tenants were not paid weekly or at the end of the harvest, but every 5 years. So we can understand from an economic standpoint, it was literally a murderous reality in that day and age for many people.[1]

However, if you think just for a minute that this story is straightforward, you would be mistaken.  It is a mixed bag of reality and allegory with sentences thrown in that make no sense with the surrounding context. 

This is one of several vineyard stories in Matthew and talks about one of his frequent themes, that of bearing fruit.  It is common knowledge that Matthew was once used by the early church as a tool of instruction for those wishing to be a full member of the church.  It was expected by the church that becoming a Christian meant that you were joining a group of people meant by God to bear fruit.  In a very real sense, the early Christians understood Jesus’ teaching to mean that living as a Christian in God’s kingdom was both a present as well as a future situation.  This parable paints a bleak picture for those who do not follow Jesus. I don’t know that I particularly agree with the contrast. But then, this is a standard way to be presented if the understanding is that the kingdom of God will occur before the present disciples die. Thus, the continued predictions of the end of the world and so far, the predictors have not been accurate.

If we are to see the vineyard as the kingdom of God, this parable implies that God has supplied all that is needed, for example, the watchtower and the wine press.  God is the owner of that vineyard.  Every bit if it is God’s. People are used to the concept that 10% belongs to God.  Not so.  All belongs to God.  We are the managers or stewards of all that God has given.[2]

But there are two meanings of the word “fruit.”  Fruit can mean repentance as in the case of the baptism which John the Baptist talked about and the other is producing the fruit of love.  Being loved by God, we are invited to love others. It means that we have everything we need to produce fruit, yet all goes awry because we, the tenants, want more.  We can be selfish. Whether intentional or not, God’s goals for the kingdom appear often to be in a state of sabotage.  The servants or leaders that God sends are killed.  The people somehow do not see how the servants fit into the kingdom and perhaps are not even thinking about the kingdom or have a different concept of the kingdom of God.  Historically, those sent by God were the prophets God sent to the people of Israel. In today’s world, they would be the leadership of the Church. 

This is a small congregation and because it is so small, leadership needs to be expanded to include most of us.  We all have various gifts and talents that are given to us by God for the strengthening of our brothers and sisters, to watch out for each other, to build up the church and to support the mission of the church with UTO offerings, funding the utilitarian boat for Camp Cross, feeding the hungry, and tending to the decision-making process for the good of the diocese.  If we are not the leaders, our role could be that of helping the leaders.

It also means evangelism.  Reaching out is a natural behavior that follows all that God has done for us and it will also afford us the opportunity to grow as a local congregation.  If you have ideas for any of these areas, please share them with the leadership of this church.  Please volunteer your time and talent. We do want to keep our church.

Yes, the world still has a lot of violence, even in our own backyards, but we need to overcome the overwhelming impact and grief that it has had on us.  God is still calling us to respond in love towards our neighbors and to be a word of peace in a place of turmoil.

God has blessed us abundantly; may we also be empowered to share that abundance with others.  Let’s not keep this to ourselves. Even though we will sometimes get caught up in going awry and even participate in possible sabotage, it is our Christian response to God’s love in Jesus Christ who gave his whole self for us to be Christ to the world.

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[1] Barbara E. Reid, Parables for Preachers, 2001 by The Order of St Benedict, Inc., Collegeville, MN; The Liturgical Press, Collegeville, MN 56321

[2] Brian Stoffregen’s exegetical notes on Matthew 21:33-46

Things are going to Change Now

Proper17A, September 3, 2017 for St. Martin’s Episcopal Church, Moses Lake, WA by Annette Fricke

Jesus said, "Things are going to change now." He heaved a sigh. We all were moving with him now toward the little spring of water. He said, "I have to go to Jerusalem. When I get there, I will suffer many things from the elders and the chief priests and the scribes. I'm telling you now so that you need not be surprised when it happens. It will happen."

Jesus knelt down by the spring, cold from the earth. He made a cup of his hands and scooped water. Just before he started to drink, he said, "I will be killed in Jerusalem, and on the third day be raised --"

I spoke again. I said the most natural thing there was to say.

Well, my feelings were so hurt by Jesus' words. Be killed? Was this the gloomy thing he'd been thinking about all the time?

I grabbed his wrist and shouted, "No!" The water splashed from his hands. "No, God won't allow it!" I cried.

On account of my feelings, I was gripping him with all my strength. But he started to pry my fingers from his wrist. He had terrible power in his hands.

I blustered on. Surely, he knew that I was arguing out of love for him! "O Lord," I said, "this can never happen to you!"[1]

            The immediate sense of this text is Peter’s reaction and comprehension of what Jesus was saying.  Peter, as a spokesperson for the disciples, understands that they will be losing a mentor, the one who has inspired them, the one they love most. But again, he does not fully get it. As "human beings," is it possible for us not to see with "human eyes? Is it possible for us to ‘get it’?

            Have you ever played or observed the children’s game called “Follow the Leader”? The "game" can get complicated if the leader goes where the followers don't want to go – crossing a narrow beam over a high crevice, running across a busy street, squeezing through the entrance to a dark cave -- or when it means going to Jerusalem, to suffer much, to be killed, and to be raised.

The "game" gets more complex if the followers can't actually see the leader. Suppose the leader disappears into a tall cornfield or into a dark cave. How do we "play follow the leader" when the leader is unseen? Where is Jesus leading us now? Where is Jesus leading our congregation now?

            And yet, someone from the outside looking in won’t see it that way at all.  They might wonder why we would follow Jesus at all and how it is possible since he is not visible in the way you and I are. Think about what it is like just observing what goes on between people. The same person we adore, someone else despises.  We are of a different ilk.  We are called to deny ourselves, take up our cross and follow Jesus.  Who is this Jesus and why do we follow him?  For some, it is a matter of time. The time may come when they do recognize the value of following Jesus.

            Think about the artist whose work goes unappreciated and dies in poverty who is recognized after death for his or her contribution and brilliant works of art.  Suddenly those paintings are worth a great deal of money—money that could have saved that artist from being a pauper while alive.

            Consider a man who goes unappreciated for his work by those who feel they are justified by racist attitudes, firmly grounded in scripture no less, simply because he is black and not white. The church of the past and present is often filled with contradiction. Of course, the natural thought is that the church before us was less enlightened. We believe many things in line with the gospel of love and justice, but do our actions say something different?  How do we distinguish between our “humanness” and truly following Jesus and sometimes can only tell in hindsight?

            Today, September 3 is annual UBE (Union of Black Episcopalians) Sunday. It is meant to be a celebration of the contributions of Black Episcopalians: People of the African Diaspora to the vibrancy of the Episcopal Church. Supporting UBE reminds and empowers us ALL to live into the fullness of following the Way of Jesus. In particular, there is much we can learn from Alexander Crummell.  Alexander Crummell lived from 1819-1898.  He was an Episcopalian priest, missionary, scholar and teacher, was born in New York City in 1819 to free black parents.  He spent much of his life addressing the conditions of African Americans while urging an educated black elite to aspire to the highest intellectual attainments as a refutation of the theory of black inferiority.  Crummell began his education at an integrated school in New Hampshire. He later transferred to an abolitionist institute in Whitesboro, New York where he learned both the classics and manual labor skills. However, after being denied admittance to the General Theological Seminary of the Episcopal Church because of his race, Crummell was forced to study privately.  Nonetheless at the age of 25 he became an Episcopalian minister.  From 1848 to 1853 Crummell lectured and studied in England.  He also graduated from Queens’ College, Cambridge University in 1853.  Crummell left England to become an educator in Liberia, accepting a faculty position at Liberia College in Monrovia.  From his new post, Crummell urged African Americans to emigrate to Liberia. Due to political reasons, this did not work out, so he returned to the United States, settling in DC.  When some Episcopal bishops proposed a segregated missionary district for black parishes, Crummell organized a group now known as the Union of Black Episcopalians to fight the proposal. From 1895 to 1897 Crummell taught at Howard University in Washington, D.C.  In 1897, the last year of his life, Crummell helped found the American Negro Academy and became its first president.  The point is this man was anything but selfishly inspired.  He responded to the gospel in a direction of social justice for his own minority group in a way that would benefit the whole of society.  He broke the barriers put up by the church and made the church better.  He is an example of putting your hands to the plow and never looking back.  Every day, like him, we should be listening for the call of Jesus and every day deciding what it is that we can do to preach, teach, and follow Jesus.[2]  He knew in his heart that his life mattered just as much as any white or other people who opposed him.

            We are free to disagree with others, but at the same time, we need to examine why we disagree.  If our disagreement is rooted in oppression and the denial of basic humanity to our fellow brothers and sisters, we need to be open to the point of view different from ours.  We are sometimes wrong as a church and as individuals. We must be willing to acknowledge that before not just God, but others.  We must be open to what Jesus is teaching us.  Peter learned from Jesus and this is where we should be, too.   Jesus said, "Things are going to change now."

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[1] Walter Wangerin, The Book of God

[2] http://www.blackpast.org/aah/crummell-alexander-1819-1898, Jeremiah Moses, Alexander Crummell: A Study of Civilization and Discontent (Oxford University Press, 1989);

Pbs.org/wnet/aaword/reference/articles/Alexander_crummell.html,